(Too Sleepy To Think Of A Good Title)

Tonight has been very tiring and exhausting. Even though my throat felt better than before, my runny nose became clogged, the coughing due to my acid reflux came back, and I feel like a fever is on its way. I feel soooo very sleepy right now  but I just had this strong urge to write this down. Because something happened worthwhile that I want to keep. 

I shouldn't have gone to another city today because I wasn't feeling very good. But I thought, since my throat is feeling better,  my condition wouldn't have probably worsen. But as you can see it has. And somehow a part of me wanted to regret. That I should have waited for another day for me and my younger sister to go on a trip. However, my contacts solution was getting empty so that's what probably triggered me to get going because I can't seem to find any suitable solution here in my home town. 

Anyway, that's just the beginning. I'm not really good at narrating so I'll just go straight to the things that made this day worthwhile. And I'm glad they happened. 

You see, the trip from a neighboring city is two hours away to our home town by bus. So we got all the time just talking and talking. It was already 9:00 PM (I think) when the bus left the terminal so we practically arrived at around 11:00 PM which is very unusual since we don't usually travel during these times here. Why  we rode the bus at 9:00 PM is another story. But it's not really that important. 

The things that really made the trip worthwhile was talks we had with my sister. The old times. I miss the old times. We used to talk a lot with my younger sister before we sleep when the lights are out or when we are both in our room just chit chatting. It's not everyday that you have a sister whom you can talk with about almost everything! And what's fulfilling in our talks is that they show how close we are that we can even open the most intimate and deep topics that we can't possibly discuss with anyone else. It's such a relief to have these good times once again. Connecting with someone in a very deep level. I'm gonna miss this when I go back to work.

Another thing that I want to keep in my memory which is the one thing that really urged me to write was that when we arrived home exhausted, hungry, and holding my bladder for a very long time, I found my younger brother silently sitting on a chair with his head in a bowing position and headset on his ears. We didn't bother him at first because I went straight to the C.R. and then straight to preparing food to eat. We were very noisy but my brother seems unmoved. So I moved closer to him and I saw him reading my Bible that I left on the computer desk. Honestly, this sight really made my heart glad because something like this is kind of unusual. I haven't talked to my brother about Christianity or the Bible and I have the slightest idea of his faith (except I know he believes in God and Jesus and the Bible. But that's just it). We really haven't discussed things like this (Oh, the irony of it). I'm always  looking for timings, but my fears get the best of me. But I'm just glad that the opportunity presented itself. And it's just this morning (or yesterday) that I actually first read the Bible while here in my home town and I left it in the computer desk afterwards. Something like this isn't just plain coincidence. And I'm really grateful that God made this happened. 

I then told my brother that if he wanted my Bible he can have it. And I'm just glad that he received it with such joy. We then started eating and discussing about the Bible, Christianity, and religion. It's actually the first time that me and my two siblings talked stuff like these and it's really quite fulfilling and awe-inspiring I could feel tears are starting to pour down (I can be really emotional when no ones around). 

Then my brother told us about a person he had encountered over the net in which he had a deep intimate conversation with. It was a very unlikely encounter because most of the people over the net are rather unpleasant, indecent or vulgar due to anonymity. He, too, was surprised that he was able to meet someone who was decent and sensible. It was a site called emegle.com (I can't quite remember) and both of my siblings knew this site. (I guess I'm getting old to catch up?:/). It's like a random chat where you meet up with a stranger and you get to know each other through that chat. The website itself is the one who randomly picks up a chatter who is using the site as well. I really don't know how it works but my bro said it was a very unlikely encounter. He never thought he can find a sensible person in that website. 

This is getting long and I'm getting really  tired so to make the long story short, he was able to chat with an atheist and they talked about religion and stuff. And it was a very fulfilling encounter for him (he felt good after the chat) because he became an instrument in sharing his faith to that person and made that person ponder about his life as an atheist. And it's just overwhelming.   

I still believe in marriage and I am really against divorce. But hey, who am I to say such things. I'm not even married! So how should I know and what right do I have to utter such words. But still, divorce is such an awful thing. In my perspective, I hate it when people break up. Even as lovers. It's too sad. Too awful. Too heartbreaking. I've always believed in two people working out together even if the spark of love has gone out. It's such a waste for such a beautiful bond between two people to be broken by the negativities life brings. Yes. I'm still naive with these things.

I just read an article stating that my country is the only country left with no divorce. And I really really hope and pray that it stays that way. Just because the rest of the world agrees with divorce doesn't mean ours should do the same. But who am I to know? I'm just one person with one vote against divorce. And people always have different thoughts about these kinds of things and the majority I believe is pro-divorce. Especially now that the Philippines is sort of gearing its way in liberating itself from tradition and moralities of life. It would be nice if people don't make a hasty decision in marrying someone if they cannot bring themselves to live with the pledge and oath marriage brings (in sickness and in health...for better or for worst...for richer or for poorer...till death do us part). Marriage is sacred and should not be separated by man. The sad news is, people tend to marry for all the wrong reasons and realize that they don't know the person at all (domestic violence, irreconcilable differences, martyrdom, infidelities, drunkenness or addiction). Also, I have read something from a person that I look up to that it would be better if you married someone who can put up with you, who you can put up with and who knows how to pick himself/herself up. When the feeling, spark, chemistry, or love have all died down, you just can't give up on a commitment. Besides, true love is not based on feelings at all. I just don't see divorce as a solution. But hey, people are people. I fear that if the time comes, my vote won't even count. It's just so sad. 

Malta was the last country to have approved divorce after four years of separation. The law was introduced prior to peoples' votes who are mostly Catholic. *sigh* It's just so sad. The Prime Minister himself was against divorce but, "This is not the result I wished for, but the will of the people has to be respected and the parliament should enact a law for the introduction of divorce."

So much for human rights and free will.

What do you mean by the likeness of God?

Surely it doesn't mean that we are 'like' God Himself. We would be lying and that would be hypocrisy. But what is likeness when man is compared to God? 

Likeness means state, quality, or fact of being like. A resemblance. An imitative appearance. 

Does it mean that God looks like us? Does it mean we are made in the state and quality of God. Does that make us equal to Him then? I don't think the answer is yes. For some reason, this stirred something in me. Something deep. Something unexplainable. The statement is rather very vague but I think this is about freewill. This is about having the freedom to think, to feel, to act, to sense, and to judge. But in all of these, how we do these things are far more different from God. He is eternal. We are made of dust. He is supreme. We are earthlings. He is perfect. We are capable making mistakes. 

Such statement evokes me as I want to understand the Word of God and putting the pieces together. To be able to live this life fulfillingly withstanding the forces that would lead to my destruction.