Torn

What is this strange feeling
That I keep on thinking about you
all the time everytime
day and night rain or shine

what is this thing that keeps me 
holding on to you steadfastly
despite this distance
despite the circumstances

is this hope? is it blind?
is it wrong? is it right?
why do i see so much in you
when every sign is saying otherwise

what are these interrupting random talks
vying and seeking for my attention 
they only make me think more of you
more and more each day

why do you cause me so much pain
and yet cause so much joy
why do i keep on praying for you
am i praying for the wrong things?

i can wait for as long as i can
will you be my first and last?
the only thing that will break this bond
if God will whisper it's not meant to be